Allah, I don't know where should I write this down. I just feel better when I write my mind down.
Thank you for tonight. I don't know why I deserve this. After what I have done to my self, abandoning you in me. You poked my mind tonight. You make me realize of one underlying cause of my unhappiness inside. I have fear, I am faithless. That's why I have been so unsettled.
Thank you and you know I am now crying out loud now in my heart. I am so happy and joyful tonight, to feel your love again. I have no doubt of absolute love. Because I feel your love no matter how badly I abandon you inside and outside.
I will kill this fear away. I will gain my full faith in you. It is never too late.
Love,
Mulia :)